Sun in Pisces: Dissolving

Fish-headYesterday the Sun moved into Pisces. I have been feeling the Pisces energy for some time as Neptune, Chiron, Mars and Mercury are already swimming through these intuitive waters. The Sun is ready to be carried down the river, floating into the timeless ocean.

In Aquarius there was a sense of being outside of the world, watching and seeing the new come together. This was a new Earth unrelated to the familiar structures that mark out the boundaries of what has been known and mastered.  The reality of the old had no hold on my attention. Remnants of the past slipped away as I  focussed on how things could be and how I trust they are, if I could just release my attachments to what has always been. Alone like the fool it is easy to occupy this transcendent realm. Happy and unconcerned whether others see what is hidden in the shimmery dominion of the faerie. I have felt cool and unattached as the universe does its rearranging, allowing it to be.

Still there were jagged vibrations and barely understood suggestions that caused an underlying anxiety. I have spoken of the unsureness of footing as I could not determine quite where the ground lay. My feet seemed so far away as I occupied celestial realms. I was Alice in her Wonderland trying to understand the new physics and my body became foreign and unreliable. Wounds festered, and what was solid seemed to dissolve. Daily there seemed to be body parts going through strange transitions. I felt as if I had committed toa distant world and my body hadn’t quite altered enough to walk in another dimension. All those planets in Pisces had pre-empted a chrysalis state and yet I was conscious as everything dissolved. Today as the Sun aligns, there is relief as I return to a feeling state. I am no longer a distant observer to my body but one with it. Calmly cocooned and feeling nurtured and cared for.

The eve of the Pisces ingress was unbearably hot. We sat outdoors, late into the night and watched the pregnant quarter moon set. Jupiter was dancing with her and as the night moved on, the Moon slowly consumed the golden planet, carrying it safely below the horizon. I was thrilled. I have never actually witnessed a conjunction in action.

Later asleep in my bed dissolving in a pool of perspiration, I was woken by a roaring noise. I felt the end had come and surely the poles were shifting, maybe a meteorite exploding overhead or at least the river had risen to wash us all away. I wished I had remained asleep, I didn’t want to be conscious during any such events.

Pisces likes to play with  illusions. Show us the anxieties that lay in the unconscious. Soon I realised the noise must have been rolling thunder as the heavens had opened and let loose a pounding fall of water. The lightning of Aquarius was greeting the deluge of Pisces as the gods changed their dominion over the planet. I am reminded of how the signs beyond Capricorn are strange fictional environments beyond the range of mere mortals. These belong to other creatures much closer to the heavens. I hopped out of bed and soaked my burning body in the rejuvenating waters that poured from the sky. Crazy with the excitement of lightning bolts, I paddled in the pond my garden had become.  I could feel the ground was grateful for replenishment after the searing heat.

As the Sun moves into Pisces, Saturn turns retrograde for the first time since it moved into Scorpio last October. It has been helping dismantle and transform the structures of life that we have always taken as solid. It has maintained our sanity right through the shift of the ages, maintaining the facade of the external environment in its familiar guise. Saturn turns retrograde, whilst we feel cocooned in our inner world and we have the opportunity to explore what is beyond its facade. We are in the year of the Snake and when the snake is ready to shed its old skin there is a period when he sees poorly, as scale caps cover his eyes. We are incubating in Pisces womb, with Saturn withdrawing its hold on the external and in a few days Mercury will turn retrograde and turn our mind inwards. All those bright possibilities we have witnessed from the mountaintop will now work themselves out in our dreams. We have committed to a new world and must slough off the old. As we shed the familiar, we remain like the Snake with tender skin. This is the time for allowing the waters to carry us gently, of gestating, and resting deeply in preparation for a new life.  When we reach the equinox, we will find ourselves birthed into a new world. Till then we need to sit with the life growing within us, allowing ourselves to be still, whilst we let angels renew and refresh us.

 

Image: Fish Head Illusion by Nick Kelly

Libra New Moon: Clear and Connected

On the day of the Libra New Moon I had set aside time for writing and posting on these pages. I felt grounded and ready for the task ahead of me. Since Saturn has moved into Scorpio, I have felt delightfully centred and uncharacteristically ready for whatever job is before me. It has been great to feel this concentrated focus. I had a few notes jotted down, my pen poised and then the phone rang. There were people at ‘Cobweb Designs,’ the gallery I work from, that have a pressing desire to have consultations with me. Wonderful! I drop everything and slip into town to make lovely new connections.

Now, a couple of days later I return to task. My life has been a whirlwind of consultations, social engagements, phone calls, quality time with my partner, my daughter, friends and the community. Welcome to Libra New Moon. It is not a time for musing alone in your room but a time of connection to others. Even when we had a free moment, the real estate agent had someone to show through our home. We would evacuate the premises and find somewhere luscious to sit in the sun with beverage in hand.

At the last New Moon in Virgo I spoke of it being my personal New Year, as the Sun emerged into my First House and began a new cycle around my chart. I felt like I could expect the unexpected. When the Sun moved into Libra I spoke of us all emerging from our personal journey and looking around to discover we were in an exquisite garden full of other beings. In Libra we are thrilled by the beauty all around and are happy to take time out to discover another person with different experiences and therefore, another perspective on life.

It is a time to fall in love. Libra rules aesthetics and freed from our own concerns it is a thrill to see the beauty in another. I have been talking for a while about us raising our vibrations by bringing more light into our life. Libra has been fulfilling this promise as the landscape has been putting on an extravagant display. I swear there is more light which is experienced as many rainbows and  intense colours in the panorama. As I drive around on outings I often feel moved to pause and drink it all in. Who can help but fall in love with life?

When the Sun and Moon are fused together at a  New Moon, the Moon is obscured by the radiance of the Sun. This time is always the beginning of a new monthly chapter. It is, however, unclear what will emerge from this joining, as we are so blinded by the light, we have yet to see what will be born. There is always something conceived that will grow rapidly and be revealed fully at the Full Moon.

Each cycle is born out of the last. In the Virgo cycle our house was put on the market. Everything was cleaned and fixed in order to be presented well. Libra is about making decisions and once made we are freed up. We no longer have to carry the burden of both sides of the choice.  A commitment is made and our work is halved.

As we resolved the issue of putting our house on the market there were unexpected Libran payoffs. Our home is de-cluttered, spruced up and beautifully presented. We are enjoying living in a calm and harmonious environment. The decision was made, the work done and there is splendour to be enjoyed. It is like being on holiday; we are able to dwell in the now.

This liberty has allowed the freedom to focus on being myself with others. The stress of choice gone I have the space to fully enjoy whatever connection comes my way.  The more joy and peace I experience the more I love what I do and the more I commit to my vocation.  I am feeling the clarity that comes from resolution. I am able to devote myself to connection, fully immersed in engagement with another.

This New Moon has introduced a faster pace of life which has been facilitated through the good work of the last six months. At night I arrive home, tired but fulfilled. I am looking forward to seeing how this new chapter unfolds.

 

Image: Thomas Cole’s ‘The Picnic’

 

Saturn in Scorpio: Transforming the Unacceptable

I wrote this post after experiencing a day of Saturn in Scorpio. These were my first impressions of dipping my toe into the Scorpion’s depths. The words I heard around me as I ventured into my community were: ‘crazy’, ‘loss of relativity’, ‘somehow the context has changed’, ‘overwhelming’, ‘ I don’t know how to handle this?’,  ‘I don’t know how to make this work?’, ‘Help!’ In fact, over the days since I wrote this post I have come across the terms: ‘crazy’, ‘craziness’ and ‘crazy-making’ all over the place.

One situational snapshot of this opening day was sitting in a public space with a friend who was intensely and excitedly relating her vision of the future. As I listened I was also aware of a man sitting across from us. He was red-faced and looking very distressed. He kept clutching his heart. My companion’s story was reaching a crescendo and I felt torn between the two situations. Eventually, I apologised and interrupted her flow. I leaned over to the gentleman and asked whether he was okay. He stated that he knew what was happening and he was taking a moment to relieve the situation. “It is just a really bad day!” he muttered.

Earlier in the week, we experienced extreme winds that were constant for about 24 hours. The noise and incessant movement were relentless. The experience was irritating. There was a feeling of being unable to escape and a sense of losing my bearings. In the beginning, it was invigorating and exciting but by the end I felt shredded and was happy to escape into the quiet of sleep.

The entry of Saturn into Scorpio last Friday/Saturday had that same intensity for me. Like the man I encountered, a breather was required. I employed different methods of centring myself:  deep breaths, grounding myself in nature, and holding rose quartz to my heart. Ironically, I found a compass application on my phone. I love it and pull it out often to check the directions.

Despite the intense activity all around, I also dwelt outside of time, holding a detached, almost cold, consciousness of all that was playing out for others and for myself. I enjoyed physical activity, mundane problem solving and stepping into more technical conversations than those I have engaged in for awhile. I recognised another more practical, streetwise persona come to the fore. It has been some time since this aspect of myself has seen the light of day. I enjoyed tackling the challenge of the surrounding dramas with concentrated calculation and dispassionate impartiality.

The past cycle of Saturn in Libra now seems lighter and less in one’s face. Much of the time the work in this sign was an intellectual experience. It involved understanding a global shift and discovering ways to create harmony, peace and understanding for myself and others. This initial impression of Saturn in Scorpio is more visceral, not vibrating light but pulsating energy; a tactile experience of the invisible. Saturn is indicating the need to remain grounded and unperturbed whilst being immersed. I have the image of wearing rain hat, galoshes and macintosh with sleeves rolled up, whilst wading in to clean up the ocean depths.

Saturn in Libra taught us to appreciate beauty that could be discovered in colour and form; found by following the flight of a bird or falling into the eyes of another. It has attuned me to no longer tolerate feeling out of balance or heavy. A state of tranquility once known, insists on being maintained. Saturn in Libra taught us to survey the landscape and allow it to lift our mood. This desire translates into a longing for fairness and peace in our relationship with others.

Meanwhile Pluto, the ruler of Scorpio, has been in Capricorn where it reveals how society is not functioning with values of integrity and harmony. As we become more committed to a state of peace and beauty, Pluto uncovers the endemic corruption. Saturn in Libra has given us a finely tuned sensor for discord. I believe Saturn in Scorpio will give us the wherewithal and resources to clean up what is not aligned with our new standards. What we tolerated as ‘just the way things are,’ we will no longer accept and Saturn in Scorpio will give us the insight and discipline to transform the unacceptable.

Image: Rage Against the Storm