Sun in Pisces: Dissolving

Fish-headYesterday the Sun moved into Pisces. I have been feeling the Pisces energy for some time as Neptune, Chiron, Mars and Mercury are already swimming through these intuitive waters. The Sun is ready to be carried down the river, floating into the timeless ocean.

In Aquarius there was a sense of being outside of the world, watching and seeing the new come together. This was a new Earth unrelated to the familiar structures that mark out the boundaries of what has been known and mastered.  The reality of the old had no hold on my attention. Remnants of the past slipped away as I  focussed on how things could be and how I trust they are, if I could just release my attachments to what has always been. Alone like the fool it is easy to occupy this transcendent realm. Happy and unconcerned whether others see what is hidden in the shimmery dominion of the faerie. I have felt cool and unattached as the universe does its rearranging, allowing it to be.

Still there were jagged vibrations and barely understood suggestions that caused an underlying anxiety. I have spoken of the unsureness of footing as I could not determine quite where the ground lay. My feet seemed so far away as I occupied celestial realms. I was Alice in her Wonderland trying to understand the new physics and my body became foreign and unreliable. Wounds festered, and what was solid seemed to dissolve. Daily there seemed to be body parts going through strange transitions. I felt as if I had committed toa distant world and my body hadn’t quite altered enough to walk in another dimension. All those planets in Pisces had pre-empted a chrysalis state and yet I was conscious as everything dissolved. Today as the Sun aligns, there is relief as I return to a feeling state. I am no longer a distant observer to my body but one with it. Calmly cocooned and feeling nurtured and cared for.

The eve of the Pisces ingress was unbearably hot. We sat outdoors, late into the night and watched the pregnant quarter moon set. Jupiter was dancing with her and as the night moved on, the Moon slowly consumed the golden planet, carrying it safely below the horizon. I was thrilled. I have never actually witnessed a conjunction in action.

Later asleep in my bed dissolving in a pool of perspiration, I was woken by a roaring noise. I felt the end had come and surely the poles were shifting, maybe a meteorite exploding overhead or at least the river had risen to wash us all away. I wished I had remained asleep, I didn’t want to be conscious during any such events.

Pisces likes to play with  illusions. Show us the anxieties that lay in the unconscious. Soon I realised the noise must have been rolling thunder as the heavens had opened and let loose a pounding fall of water. The lightning of Aquarius was greeting the deluge of Pisces as the gods changed their dominion over the planet. I am reminded of how the signs beyond Capricorn are strange fictional environments beyond the range of mere mortals. These belong to other creatures much closer to the heavens. I hopped out of bed and soaked my burning body in the rejuvenating waters that poured from the sky. Crazy with the excitement of lightning bolts, I paddled in the pond my garden had become.  I could feel the ground was grateful for replenishment after the searing heat.

As the Sun moves into Pisces, Saturn turns retrograde for the first time since it moved into Scorpio last October. It has been helping dismantle and transform the structures of life that we have always taken as solid. It has maintained our sanity right through the shift of the ages, maintaining the facade of the external environment in its familiar guise. Saturn turns retrograde, whilst we feel cocooned in our inner world and we have the opportunity to explore what is beyond its facade. We are in the year of the Snake and when the snake is ready to shed its old skin there is a period when he sees poorly, as scale caps cover his eyes. We are incubating in Pisces womb, with Saturn withdrawing its hold on the external and in a few days Mercury will turn retrograde and turn our mind inwards. All those bright possibilities we have witnessed from the mountaintop will now work themselves out in our dreams. We have committed to a new world and must slough off the old. As we shed the familiar, we remain like the Snake with tender skin. This is the time for allowing the waters to carry us gently, of gestating, and resting deeply in preparation for a new life.  When we reach the equinox, we will find ourselves birthed into a new world. Till then we need to sit with the life growing within us, allowing ourselves to be still, whilst we let angels renew and refresh us.

 

Image: Fish Head Illusion by Nick Kelly

Leo Full Moon- Contact

We have been walking for a while; up hill and down dale. With the Capricorn New Moon we have just taken that last little climb to the peak of the mountain. Welcome. Sit down. This place is very comfortable. Rest your staff across your knees. At the New Moon I had the opportunity to recognise my work had value and it felt wonderfully fulfilling. It is good to take pause from the journey and see all that has been achieved on the road. My! How far we have come.

Over this time and particularly at the full moon I have met several Kings of Pentacles. These are men and women who have mastered their domain. They are confident and easy. They have no doubt about their ability and have nothing to prove. No need to boast or sell their mastery. They know what they can do and they love it. Prosperity comes naturally, they have fulfilled their promise. Life is good and they are content. Now they pause, firmly planted on their mountain throne, surveying the scenery.

What a view it is! At this height there is nothing to impede our vision. We can see 360 degrees laid out all around; where we have come and what lays before us. There are many great mountains, some with other masters viewing their realm. Before us lies kingdoms we have yet to travel; heroes climbing unknown peaks, rivers, oceans, people residing in valleys contemplating what path may best serve their talent. From here we can consider the cosmos and choose a star to follow next. Before us lies all the potential and as yet uncreated possibilities.

At this radiant Full Moon we can sit at leisure and let the Leo light allow full awareness of our true and abundant power. The eagles soar at this great height; their clarity offers glimpses of exquisite detail in the tapestry that extends in every direction.

The voyager that has laboured up this mountain over the last  year can feel secure in their achievement. It took courage, faith and perseverance to get this far. Now as we rest up in the firmament, we are participating in the dreaming. The Aboriginal people respect the Rainbow Serpent that lies before them and through participation in the dreaming they honour the laws of creation.

This last weekend at the Leo Full Moon we have engaged in a community dreaming, We are delighted in the panorama we have called up. This snake forms the rainbow bridge that links us to next year. There is no need for tarot or astrology, tell yourself the story of your weekend. This dreaming contains all the decisions, directions and guidance to follow the path of your tribe as you conjure up the heights that will become your next mastery. This weekend was the wormhole that leads to the future. Remember the movie, Contact, when Jodie Foster entered her Merkaba-shaped contraption and visited with another dimension. No-one at home base saw her leave, she bi-located into another time and space but only she knew the journey she had taken.No-one noticed she had left. Like Alice down the rabbit-hole, you also visited another place.

Now you have a crystal ball in your hand. What dreams did you have? Who did you see, contact or think about? Who thought of you? These are your travelling companions. What are the stories that played out around you? Alan used an ancient wooden ladder and climbed its apex to change the globes, bringing light into new parts of our cosmos previously dark. Susan and I excavated layers of fabric to discover a cedar hexagon table. A two dimensional Merkaba on which we created a diorama of the Mad Hatter’s tea party, whilst an unknown King told us of his passion for the mathematical language of financial management. Visitors were drawn to our creation but as in ‘Contact,’ the people with us didn’t notice the transformation that dominated the landscape. Stained glass treasure boxes arrived, worthy of a priestess of Avalon. Bec shared an abundant vision of a world that provided healthy produce for everyone and stunned us with how much she had already mastered. We farewelled the French couple that shared our lives over the last nine months, creating new Ley lines between worlds.

A crystal ball actually did arrive and I looked into it expecting to see my future.This weekend we were given sight. Look into that clear orb and see what you have created and what you are manifesting. You have a view of all that is before you. Take the prescience, see the details, play with it, polish the jewels and the path forward will be well lit. This is an opportunity to become conscious of your vision. Write it, paint it, anchor it, whatever is your way; make a touchstone. It will be capstone that will hold your new castle in place.We are going to have the most amazing year and be stunned by our creation.

Soon we will need to descend from our lofty height. We will begin pruning, ploughing, planting and tending. The work is ahead of us but at this moment we already hold the harvest in our hands. We are watching the worker ants toiling in the valley. The candle that lit the flame in your heart has become a phallus impregnating the land.

To all of those who participated in my life over the last year, those that have been sharing this Moon cycle and people who I have touched and who have touched me over the last 48 hours; you are my comrades on this journey. Thank you for being part of my life and this vista we are calling into being.

We are singing up a new world with every step, following the song we have written in our heart. Next year we will meet on that peak, way over there, feeling fulfilled and ready to take a new flight of fancy.

A stranger came in for a reading. I learnt nothing of her life. As she left she stated warmly and confidently, ‘I will see you next year.’ Something about her authority surprised me, my heart flew open and my body shivered in excitement.  Yes, my loves, I will see you next year!

Image: A Generation of Vipers’ By Lindsey Carr 

Sun into Aquarius: Shifting

800px-Jheronimus_Bosch_023Last night I dreamt that I was at Cobweb Designs, the gallery in our local village where I do consultations and help out in the shop. Of course being a dream it has metamorphosed into a different reality; I have visited this place before in nightly sojourns. It is a bigger store, more open to a cobbled street, full of people. This is a prosperous venue with a bevy of paid staff.

This transformation is not reflected in my space which in reality is a beautifully appointed room. I am directed to my clients who are twin boys with a physical disability that makes there bodies wasted, twisted and weak. They are young men probably about 18 years old and have been ushered into one of two egg shaped modules where I apparently do my readings. I look in on them and it is a stale, green felt environment, musty with mildew. Disgusted, I usher them out planning to use the other egg which evaporates and so we settle on a bed to do the tarot reading. These young men are eager even when I haven’t got my usual deck and have to struggle with large unfamiliar cards which I choose randomly. The designs are very intricate and colourful. It takes me time to translate them from my old deck and discuss the meaning. The twins have no trouble identifying them as we excitedly explore their potential. Our location constantly changes. Sometimes we are surrounded by their peers who jeer at their weirdness, sometimes we are around a campfire lost in time or amongst the trees on my property. We lose ourselves in the possible world we are creating via the mind expanding promise of the cards.

On waking I recognise that these twins, represented the Aquarian portion of my Gemini self. This is the so called higher mind: alien, genius, visionary – not quite physically grounded in our present world, connected to a different drum beat and inventing the future that in time will become manifest and accepted as normal. These are the folk that whisper to us in Elvish or deliver alien messages from their journey around the cosmos. They pour the electrified water from their urn which kickstarts us into a better world.

Since 21-12 I have felt the energy shifting from the downloads we have received over recent years to a solid grounding in the energy of the earth. I have never felt as rooted and held by the mother as I have over this last month. This has provided a grounding, a solid security of belonging and a desire to serve the planet and an  awareness that the work of Capricorn is to serve our connection to the changing earth. Now in Aquarius we are more likely to perceive the waterfall of light energy pouring over us from  the Aquarian urn, which must be located in the galactic centre.

Sometime during the Capricorn cycle I stumbled upon a Youtube clip which presented a new theory of the Earth. This has fascinated me, regularly playing over in my mind. It rejects the idea of continental drift, proposing instead that the earth is expanding. That the earth started out as a solid marble of land and as it grew the land broke apart forming the continents and the gaps filled with water that became our oceans. I must say I rather like the idea of the heavy denseness being magically filled with transparent glistening water. The solid reality becomes looser, more flexible and iridescent with shine and shimmer. Water absorbs everything, taking the form of whatever it comes in contact with. It is where life is conceived and born. It takes the imprint of light and is able to bring potential to full term. It is this light-seed that Aquarius implants in the next sign. Pisces watery womb carries the Aquarian imprint and nurtures matrixes of other dimensions and unknown futures.

Towards the end of Capricorn, Venus triggered the Uranus/Pluto square by first squaring Uranus and then joining Pluto. This has been a strange time of sudden events and intense and erratic changes of the energy. I have noticed environments being full and alive with celebration, quickly empty, as if all the air has been sucked out and the streets turn into a ghostly town. These shifts happen during the day, turning on a dime. People describe losing inspiration, feeling empty, deciding to give up. They are puzzled because they have shifted from being so connected and uplifted. Then its all gone, a mere memory.

I see Pluto is working away in his underground kingdom clearing more and more of what holds us to our known reality. It is doing the emptying like a deep vortex sucking out all that is old and decayed. Uranus is now reinforced by Aquarius filling the space with high pulsating light, still a little out of reach for the vibrational range of our senses. Together they are creating a void in our normal range of perception and yet we are birthing new senses that can still detect what is happening all around us. The egg that has contained us like in my dream has become too small and putrid – we need to break out into new visions and new surroundings.

During Capricorn I have sat with the mother amongst the Pine trees connecting to the rhythm of her heartbeat. The last few days since the Sun has moved into Aquarius I have walked on waking. A gumtree called to me, alive with flowers, bees and ants. This tree alone amongst a grove of upright companions was in full bloom. Like the twins in my dream it was different; it had twisted its natural upright shape to form an almost horizontal spiral, angling itself away from the shade of its companions and out into the light.

On the river beach I close my eyes in meditation and when I open them I feel giddy. The expanse of water in front of me reveals its underwater world in patches, the changeable surface reflects dancing light in different ways and are sometimes fully eclipsed by the misty clouds.  The sand forms many tidal patterns and pebbles flow out in different directions. So many worlds exposed all at once is disorientating. I can feel everything moving, altering, shifting. My feet are no longer on solid ground as everything re-arranges. Whilst we are inundated with the light energy of this sign we have a window into the new world. Let yourself  be immersed in possibility,  you are being seeded by the light that will create its own reality as we birth and grow throughout the year.

 

Image: ‘The Garden of Earthly Delights’ Heronimus Bosch

 

Aquarius Full Moon: Igniting the Future

On the day of the full moon I was out walking along the wide Huon River. The water was so still it had disappeared in the reflection of the sky. The dead trees drifting down from the forests upstream formed strange symbolic shapes with their reflection. I looked down from the bank and felt a part of an alien universe where all things fly through the landscape.

This was the perfect culmination point of my month, adrift in a new world after falling in love with my reflection. I took the advice of my New Moon post and took time out to form a sheath to protect my sensitivity. As I go back and reread the Cancer New Moon post I am amused that the image I chose to illustrate it is of a shelter made of driftwood at the water’s edge. Now at the Full Moon the universe chuckles as my shoreline cave has opened up to float in another dimension. I love the magic mirror of our world. It is constantly filled with messages of joy and reassurance from our awakened being to our somnambulant self.

I feel returned to me. I have been vigilant about what I engage with and whether it comes from a ‘should’ space or a ‘personal desire’ state. It has been important for me to get back to my own essence. I love Mercury retrograde times for they really allow me to stop focussing out there and just bathe in the delicious energy of being myself.

I have spent my time alone revising my values and reviewing my goals. This has been a wonderful experience of rediscovering what is important to me. Venus in Gemini has been trine Saturn in Libra and this energy has supported a personal time and motion study. I have been observing the structure of my days and measuring where my energy goes; keen to relinquish the automated tasks that provide little respite from anxiety. I seek to replace habit with more meaningful activities based on what is truly important to me.

Leo is the sign of the individual ready to step out from the shadow of the family and allow their unique individuality to shine brilliant talents into the world. My constant companion over this time has been Venus asking the question, “Does this activity come out of an appeasement to some external anxiety or does it arise from my passion to embrace life?”  I have been able to scan my body and note the holding points where tension hides and feel the thrill as I let the concern go. My being is flooded with relief and euphoria as I step into activities with a child’s pleasure. Each activity becomes a new and fresh adventure.

Life is fantabulous when lived like this. It requires a strange type of consciousness. I am reminded of Narcissus who saw his reflection in a pool and fell in love with it. He drowned. First, there is the awareness of who you are and then you lose yourself by becoming one with your reflection. No longer self-conscious, just being.

Now, at the Full Moon in Aquarius from high up on the banks of the river I see the strange shapes of a new world float by. I do not understand what this future world will be. I am aware of new possibilities being discovered every day. I have enjoyed listening to the wonderful ideas that are spreading through mediums like TED.  As each individual assumes the Leo crown of their divine purpose we are creating something totally new. I have great faith in the future of our shared humanity. The light in the child’s eyes may need external help to illuminate their gifts, however the gold of our destiny is within us all and I can feel the flames of awareness being ignited right across the planet.

 

 

Image: from The Little King and I