Cancer New Moon: Adjusting to the Light

From the album: ƸӜƷ•°*””*°•.ƸӜƷ•°*””*°•ƸӜƷ•°*””*°•.ƸӜƷ•°*””*°• By L'incanto d'amore dei poeti estintiI have been stressed the last few days and haven’t been able to occupy my life. Maybe that is another call of the Occupy Movement – to occupy our lives and our world. I feel like we have been ghosts within our own reality; we have not been fully alive to the pleasures of our incarnation. We are uncomfortable in our life, our bodies, our work and our relationships. We are uncomfortable in our skin. This is not why we incarnated. We are not condemned to life.  We are here to pursue our passions, know pleasure and live joyously. We are each uniquely talented, equally valuable.

Yet we do not embrace life because we haven’t felt the safety of our place on earth. We have censored our desires and longings and they have been relegated to whispers. Our true self comes to us from left field using surprise to attract our attention. “I love this.”  “Wouldn’t it be nice…”  “ If only I could do this all the time!”

I long to be fully contained and accepted by myself. Fully incarnated and hearing that quiet, still voice. This is Cancer. I have written my Cancer New Moon post many times. They have been okay but don’t quite gel. I write and write. I have done more writing for this post than any other. The deadline has come and gone and still I haven’t wanted to post. Old prototypes litter my pages, stillborn and rejected. I start again, over and over.

Other work has piled up. I have not responded to many e-mails from clients, friends and family that I like to stay connected with. I have felt hopeless about that. I have become overwhelmed and paralysed. I have had massive mood swings and come to the conclusion that you cannot write Cancer.

I have spent time alone and out in nature and felt euphoric and centred, becoming a wildly empowered love machine. I have felt insane with giggly joy.

Here at the bottom of the world it is winter and the days are short. It is cold and gets dark early. The euphoria of solitude dissipates in the face of things left undone. I miss my deadlines. I become afraid that the stress will make me sick. I am aware of others succumbing to winter colds and flu.

I accept I can only protect myself at this point. I am intent on living, feeling the passion wanting to burst out. I do not want to be taken out of this glorious game. The only thing I can do is take care of my own needs. Keep tending to my own joy. I must allow my empty vessel to fill up again. I let it all go. Let the tears come. Allow myself to let others down while I replenish. Peace. I free myself to be the baby. I am sorry. I am helpless. Leave me alone and I will return.

I remember all the Cancer’s I have known. How often they fret and worry over their amazing works. Others are waiting for them to release their grip on their creations. They know they cannot comply. Both art and artist, mother and baby need to be ready for the onslaught of demands and expectations the world will place on them.

When I was a new mother and I instinctively knew to protect my baby from the hustle and bustle of the external world during her first weeks on Earth. She was too fragile for the harshness of artificial environments; of supermarkets, traffic and fluorescent lights. Crowds were out of bounds. I didn’t want to expose her to emotions gone awry, where the energy of fear and random stress escaped the bounds of weary humans coping with their daily responsibilities.

There is a time that a baby needs to develop a protective sheath whilst she acclimatises to being in a body on Earth. The mother needs to replenish her strength after giving birth and allow her baby to be the only recipient of her love. It is just the same for Cancer.

At this New Moon we are strengthening ourselves for re-entry in the world. We have experienced many cosmic vibrations in the last couple of months. We have had stunning eclipses, Venus’s transit across the face of the Sun, massive Solar flares and Uranus and Pluto becoming exact. We have been bombarded with much light and we are changing.

As we manage this transmutation, our bodies are releasing old density stored over Eons. The Earth is adjusting to a new reality. We are vulnerable whilst we experience the unknown. We need to find a centre, rediscover ourselves and nurture this new state of being. Take this time to remember who you are. The Sun will move into Leo in a couple of days and we will want to shine our light in the world. Meanwhile… wait in Cancer’s protective arms and allow the timing to come naturally.

 

Image: I share this cosy picture from the Facebook album: ƸӜƷ•°*””*°•.ƸӜƷ•°*””*°•ƸӜƷ•°*””*°•.ƸӜƷ•°*””*°•

12 responses

  1. Though I’m new to Western Astrology, I appreciated your Blog and the articles yuu’d posted. I’m basically a Retired Civil Engineer pursuing my passion in Astrology. While studying Enginnering I was initiated into Vedic Astrology by Prof.Viswanatham in 1960. I developed my passion by reading astrology books whatever I could lay my hand on. While in service in the Government I tried my hand with predictions as a hobby and my colleagues used to come to me for advice. Like that I developed my knowledge in Vedic Astrology. I very much wants to learn Western Astrology. I’d studied some articles on the web on Western Astrology but could’nt understand fully. Some words like T-square great triangle type of predictions is new to me. Can you suggest some web site where I can get these details mam!
    I will be following your web site and try to understand the intricacies about WA.
    Thank You very much for your appreciation of my Articles in my Blog: sreenivasdesabhatla.wordpress.com

    • It is lovely to meet you, Sreenivas Desabhatla. I have had very little exposure to Vedic Astrology. It appears to be structured quite differently to Western Astrology and I believe is very well equipped for prediction. I have learnt my astrology from books and teachers before the internet and am unable to recommend any sites with which I have had experience. There are many sites offering free resources from a google search. I do read many blogs and articles on-line though.

      A t-square is a closed aspect pattern. One or more planets are opposite (180 degrees) from another planet. Both ends of the opposition are in square aspect (90 degrees) to a third planet (or more if they are in conjunction). Essentially these planets create inner tension and stress as they tend to have conflicting objectives. This configuration causes frustration and difficulty in peoples lives, however, these people can often be very successful. This is because they are always having to find ways to deal with their problems, this leads to action and often very creative problem solving.

      The Grand Trine is another aspect pattern that has planets that occupy three points at 120 degrees from each other. This forms a great triangle. In its purest sense the three points are all in the same element. These planets are all compatible and flow together with great ease in a person’s life. This would appear to be a life of great fortune and may be. Often though the talent of the person may be taken for granted and go unnoticed by them. It comes so easy they assume everyone has it and because of the lack of tension they may never be challenged to develop it.

      I hope this helps answer the questions you pose. I would be happy to answer any questions you may have. You can contact me at perianne@live.com.au I think we are both very lucky to be able to pursue our passion for astrology. :)

  2. I have enjoyed your thoughts and pictures. Thank you for following my blog. Time seems to be compressed lately. I awake today feeling so grateful for my life and all its’ blessings so I decided to start thanking people. Blog-pals are important to me.

    • Thank you I appreciate your kind words. Gratitude is such a powerful way of returning to our heart. I learnt the concept several years ago and have been incorporating it into my life since. This Cancer cycle with all the emotions have had me constantly returning to feelings of gratitude for my life, my friends and the continuing expansion. I think it is a gift of fragility that I become so moved and touched by all the people in my life. When I use to get my period and be swamped with emotion I would become very maudlin, grateful for my loved ones. Nature automatically supplies the healing and balancing of our energies, just as we need them.

      I started Astrology Mon Ami only 5 months ago in Pisces and already I feel such strong heart connection to many blog-pals that I have had the honour to encounter. I get such pleasure from imagining you in your garden with your flowers and your dog. I am touched by the presence of your parent’s memory everywhere around you and the poetry you introduce me to. What a grand life that I can draw on the gifts they you have given me as I appreciate my own garden on the other side of the world.

  3. I have felt the need to replenish too. Still do in fact. One thing from Cancer season I plan on taking with…a sense of self and balance of the psyche. Feeling overwhelmed at times too, is the nature of the square. Hope Leo season finds you feeling more invigorated, pouncing and playful. Sensitives are needing to build a shell during this square- perhaps the retrogrades are helping just that. Such irony – protection while being open…perhaps that was the message of my recent totem – the pacifist skunk. take care

    • The “pacifist skunk’ huh…you have me curious? Have I missed a post?
      Protection while being open is the balancing act we are learning all the time. It is a very tender game.

      • haha pacifist skunk is tucked in quicksand ( what I called my ‘I’m outta here !’ transit. lol)
        Cancer is so touchy feelie which sets off my natal Saturn by square. Cap motto: no whiners ! It irritates me when I catch myself simply expressing Cancer stuff. It IS hard to describe. Next month an experiment, I dream up some great Cancer square treat for myself, see how it goes. :)

  4. Beautiful words and photo! “I feel like we have been ghosts within our own reality; we have not been fully alive to the pleasures of our incarnation.”

    “Yet we do not embrace life because we haven’t felt the safety of our place on earth.”

    I especially love these and can so relate. I often feel this way, wrapped up in my personal quest for security. I know that it will pay off one day, but it’s hard to fully live the life I want to live when obligations demand so much of us.

    I can agree with the notion that you can’t completely quite write Cancer. It’s so complex, amorphous, subjective. I really love this post. Here’s to hoping that you begin to radiate in this new phase of Leo.

    • Thank you for your affirmation, Aphelionx. It means a lot to me as I know you have Cancer strong in your chart. My Mars is in Cancer. I have indeed been able to radiate in Leo and feel much more grounded in myself. My Leo is in my 12th House so I have still been hidden away; hence the length of time it has taken me to respond to your comment, ;) I hope you are having a playful good time, shining bright in your world.

      • All good. I have been shining bright for a change albeit very busy. Now, I’m trying to avoid workaholism with this new Virgoan sun lol.

        Good old House XII. Last year, I had Progressed Sun and Moon in the twelfth. Needless to say, comparing this year to last year is like night and day as my Moon (chart ruler) entered my first house. I’m sure you’ll find your way back to the light when you’re ready and you’ll shine with such personal presence and easily draw your desires to you :)

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